Fear

Notes from a writer. My dear friend, Kishan Paul.

Kishan Paul

As I near the completion of my first novel, I’m finding my level of anxiety increasing.  Which didn’t make any sense, shouldn’t I be excited to be this close to the end?

It’s because the story is at its climax.  It’s because I’m juggling too many things.  My explanations for the feeling were endless, at first.  But even as I came up with them, I knew they weren’t the reasons.  Just couldn’t put my finger on what was.  Until the other day, when I sat in front of my laptop and realization hit.

It was fear.

The reality is that once this story is done, I will find out if it’s worthy.  Isn’t that weird?  I love my story and the characters have become a part of me.  But in the end, it’s not if I like it as much as if the agents, publishers, and readers do.  I was…

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3 thoughts on “Fear

  1. HI CAIT. I GUESS IT’S DIFFICULT TO WRITE “THE END” ON SOMETHING YOU WORKED SO HARD ON, ALMOST LIKE LETTING YOUR BABY GO TO SCHOOL FOR THE FIRST TIME. YOU ARE SO PROUD BUT SCARED NOT TO HAVE HIM WITH YOU.

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